Thursday, October 21, 2010

A Little Message

I want to write.

I want to share more stories with you. Not my complaints anymore but my learnings. I want to share and learn myself. I want to reflect.

Why does it seem so difficult to find the time?

Why is it so hard to figure out what to give up and what to attend to?

Hmmmmm. I don't know really. Just that I have a couple of stories I'd love to share, some fun, some thoughtful.

Tonight I need to go to bed so instead I'll give you a list like the old days.

Recent stuff ...

I've been asked twice int he past 2 weeks why I'm not wearing my wedding rings. I stopped wearing them weeks ago because they started falling off after I lost weight. I get offended when people ask me why I don't wear rings. I don't know if this is good or bad. But it is how I feel when they ask. (By the way, I feel not one twinge of guilt for not wearing them, I love my husband).

I got my first speeding ticket Tuesday. Rather than feeling scared or fearful when the cop pulled me over my first thought was 'This will be a great story to tell'. Maybe I'll put it to paper (even though there's not a lot to it).

I learned today that the very slow walking person I support (who has no physical reason why she must walk at a turtle's pace), still walks as if her feet are glued to the ground even when it's pouring rain.

A family member and I have recently resolved a long standing offense. I have found the forgiveness shared has healed many a wounds and given me deeper joy and peace than I knew I could feel in that relationship. It's never too late.

I wondered at the stars this morning

I'm continuing to learn a lot. A LOT during my journey of getting fit and such. I am daily amazed at how never ending the trip is. I hope to share.

I used the treadmill at the gym for the first time the other day. Yes I've been at the gym for 9 months I have been terrified to go on in fear that my body would become imprinted in the wall at the back of the gym. I acquainted myself very well with the emergency stop button before I went to fast.

I have realized that my $10 000 goal is incredibly huge. Though I'm am admittedly a bit fearful I am also thankful that I made the goal bigger than myself. That way when I reach it I will be humbled and amazed at ... well several things.

I must go now and sleep.

Live. Please live. Full and strong. Real and bright. Love and laugh and feel joy.


Eva :)